Failing at being a wife……

Today I failed as a wife…………………………….
My husband,whom has worked a lot of hours this past month, just wanted to spend some quality alone time tonight and I shunned him. Instead he is off in the bedroom watching a movie, and I am out here writing my blog.

It doesn’t seem right………

But of course I justify my actions because I have been up since 7 am this morning, running the household alone, while everyone else got to sleep in and take relaxing times today. The baby has been extra fussy and wants to be held more, the 2 and 3 year old are louder than usual—and blah, blah, blah,–I am exhausted and just want to crawl into bed alone and take a long nap.

So I sulk In my head, knowing that I am in the wrong for what I am justifying. I think to myself no other wife does ALL the work like I do. I compare and contrast different husband and wife situations and where is it getting me?

Further away from my husband and God.

Ephesians 5:22
Wives, submit to your own husbands, as to the Lord.

I need to remember that it does not matter what I think is “fair” in my life. Jesus Christ did not get treatly fairly in his life. Most godly people, taking a stand for Christ are not treated fairly in their lives. If I believe wholeheartedly that God is in control of my life and that all of these “unfair acts” are necessary tools to mold and make me be a better person then I need to take my cross and bear it. I need to realize that I will keep failing in my duties as a wife and mother if I succumb to these lies and temptations. I need to quit these self pity thoughts and move onward.
What do I do from here? I ask for forgiveness. I admit I am a failure and I get back up again and change my attitude for tomorrow. I go above and beyond my duties as a wife to show my husband that I do love and care for him deeply. I apologize for being in a fleshy mood.

…………………onward to another day, another chance at redemption

5 responses to “Failing at being a wife……

  1. I am always failing at being a wife. I am reading Created to Be His Help-Meet right now, and although I don’t know if I like it or not, it is inspiring me to try harder, which I guess was the purpose of the book.

    • The Lord has definitely helped me see my wrong in this situation……I love that book, well I shouldn’t say “love” but that book transformed my marriage years ago, it is my goto book quite frequently:) I struggle just like everyone else does, but I am trying. Word of advice, when you want to throw the book, pick it back up and keep on reading:)

  2. Onwards to another day…that is all we ever can do, Amy, and perhaps take with us lessons learned so maybe the next time we will choose differently. Life is one long lesson in learning to love well, to put others before ourselves. And it can be so very hard sometimes when we are just plain hit-the-wall tired! But He remembers we are just His dust bunnies so He sweeps us into His arms where our strength is renewed and then we carry on…visiting from Titus 2sdays link up. God bless you and your lovely family!

    • Amen to all of that, he definitely has helped me see my erring ways…………….all we can do is try harder for the next time, thank you for your advice. Blessings to you. Amy

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