Experiencing the “Cloud of Doom”

It’s 7:00 am, you awaken to the sound of a crying baby. One look at the alarm clock, makes you realize that you overslept, again. Time to jump out of bed, grab the baby, and sit down to feed her. If only she could eat faster, sigh. Your head is foggy from the lack of sleep last night. It seems the toddler, wakes up more than the baby and the preschooler is having a hard time sleeping through the night lately. You looked at the clock multiple times throughout the night and realize that you have been awoken every hour on the hour. You sigh and wonder if life will get any easier?

As you lay the baby back down, you decide to shower for a quick pick me up. It seems that this is the ONLY time that you are able to have a quiet moment with the Lord. It happens only as you are rinsing the shampoo out of your hair because you know that if you take more than the allotted seven minutes, your morning is going to be put further behind than it already is. You pray for patience, peace, and happiness for the day. You ask God to fill you because you are empty and feel so incomplete. Your mind starts to wander and you relive the things that your husband had said to you that stung your conscious last night. You start to think of your friend, whom you had lunch with yesterday, and how content and easy going she appeared while you visited. You listened to her share all that God was doing good in her life, you outwardly rejoiced with her, but inside it hurt. Why wasn’t He doing anything good in your life?

Now your mind starts racing. You begin to question yourself “Why can’t I figure things out? I feel like such a failure as a wife and as a mom. I’m just not happy the way my life is going.

Will I ever get through this?”

As the rest of your day unfolds, your mountain begins to grow. Between the crying babies, busy toddlers, and fighting preschoolers it seems that life is overwhelming. Your husband may call and ask you to take care of something unexpectedly and you get offended at him because of the bitterness you are still seething from last night. Doesn’t he realize all that you are doing now? What he asks of you, you do it. But all the while you are thinking what a jerk he is for not realizing that you are busy enough.

As you continue to constantly dwell on all the negativity in your life, you feel like this cloud of doom is overtop of you. It is a heaviness that won’t go away. The storm clouds continue to roll in day after day and covers you. Does it every go away? You pray and ask God for clarity and it seems He doesn’t even answer. Inside you feel empty.

Any of this sound familiar? For myself, this was reality. It seems that life was overwhelming and I felt the cloud of doom rolling in, more times than I‘d like to admit. I tried to read my Bible and pray, but it just seemed that God wasn’t listening to me, was He? It took me awhile to get out of my misery. It took the prayers and help from some good faithful women who were willing to teach me and help me with my walk in the Lord It seems I would get on track and do good for awhile and then something would happen and I would be back at the place I was before I had my “breakthrough.” That isn’t the way it should be.

When the Lord showed me to write this book, I sat down and all of the information just flowed.  These are all issues that I have dealt with in my past. Things that have held me back from the goodness that He has given to me.  Once I started “opening my eyes” and being set free from the things that have weighed me down, then life changed.  Things got stirred up and all of the years of bitterness, anger, stress, not feeling good enough, not going anywhere, were slowly being lifted and I was a new person.

God  wants to use us as moms, wives, and women who will move forward and operate with Him as the center of our lives.  We have so many great things to accomplish but if we are all not doing our part and what God has for us, then we are missing out. Don’t just think that you are not good enough or that you are too busy as a mom of little ones.  God has such a great plan and expectation for your life, but we have to WANT to have it, to enjoy it!

It covers four areas that have been huge stumbling blocks in my life:

  • Unforgiveness
  • The need to control
  • Taking offense
  • Devaluing ourselves

Where do you begin???  How can you let go of past abuse from someone, whom you don’t want to forgive?  What do you do when you live with an unsaved spouse and you feel like if you allow things your family will be destroyed?   How about the years of guilt from holding onto things from your past that you just can’t seem to get over?  What about the roots of bitterness that have grown in your marriage that you just can’t seem to cut loose from?


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